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first off let me start by saying my Schirmer was 9/5 mm (some even might say Schirmer is a useless test because it can vary heavily depending on the circumstances) and my BUT at the start of the year and last year was 7/4 seconds. In march I had 3 seconds on the right eye and 1 week ago I scored an 8 on my right eye!! So judging by dry eye terms, it's not THAT bad actually. I know others have it a lot worse. But still the last 2 weeks, I was at point where I basically couldn't find joy anymore, I needed a break...from life. Just today I cried, lonely in my office. I just couldn't hold it back. And I felt relief after it...not only in my mind but also on the eyes.
My symptoms throughout the day go from "I can't take it anymore" to "there are no symptoms at all" just like now. I had a day where I only used eyedrops 3 times and just because I thought it couldn't hurt to lubricate my eyes now.
Now my question to you: Is it even possible that the objective problems of my eyes are getting better and worse at this speed? What could harm my eyes up to the point that they burn like hell to the point where I'm free of symptoms within the course of a few hours?
Does healing maybe start with the mindset? I'm at a point where I skip meals and lose weight because I'm too nervous and distracted to feel the need to eat anymore. Most of the day I can't even feel joy anymore and I'm mostly emotionless or sad.
first off let me start by saying my Schirmer was 9/5 mm (some even might say Schirmer is a useless test because it can vary heavily depending on the circumstances) and my BUT at the start of the year and last year was 7/4 seconds. In march I had 3 seconds on the right eye and 1 week ago I scored an 8 on my right eye!! So judging by dry eye terms, it's not THAT bad actually. I know others have it a lot worse. But still the last 2 weeks, I was at point where I basically couldn't find joy anymore, I needed a break...from life. Just today I cried, lonely in my office. I just couldn't hold it back. And I felt relief after it...not only in my mind but also on the eyes.
My symptoms throughout the day go from "I can't take it anymore" to "there are no symptoms at all" just like now. I had a day where I only used eyedrops 3 times and just because I thought it couldn't hurt to lubricate my eyes now.
Now my question to you: Is it even possible that the objective problems of my eyes are getting better and worse at this speed? What could harm my eyes up to the point that they burn like hell to the point where I'm free of symptoms within the course of a few hours?
Does healing maybe start with the mindset? I'm at a point where I skip meals and lose weight because I'm too nervous and distracted to feel the need to eat anymore. Most of the day I can't even feel joy anymore and I'm mostly emotionless or sad.
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