Hi guys,
I'd be grateful to hear your thoughts.
I am relatively normal guy and if you speak to anyone they would tell you I'd not harm a fly but since contracting MGD I am even more prone to angry/violent outbursts.
I find that my family don't understand me.
At the weekend, I was so annoyed with the redness in my eyes that I was consumed by worry, frustration and annoyance.
I find myself paralyzed when it comes to talking to the people closest to me i.e. my wife. So I build up my feelings.
So much so that I made a comment to my wife about 'putting up that umbrella' in a horrible tone. Later on she was annoyed at how I had spoken to her. I said that 'this condition is getting the better of me'. She said 'yeaaa sure, blame the condition'. My mind flipped and before I knew it I violently kicked a chair which beside me saying, well I can't remember but something alone the lines of 'yes the condition has me this way'.
She left the room and later on told me that another violent incident and we'd be in the divorce courts.
I now feel trapped. Do I need to talk to a psychologist about this? Or given that there is a financial cost involved here, try to work this out myself and save my money for dry eye treatments.
Kevin
I'd be grateful to hear your thoughts.
I am relatively normal guy and if you speak to anyone they would tell you I'd not harm a fly but since contracting MGD I am even more prone to angry/violent outbursts.
I find that my family don't understand me.
At the weekend, I was so annoyed with the redness in my eyes that I was consumed by worry, frustration and annoyance.
I find myself paralyzed when it comes to talking to the people closest to me i.e. my wife. So I build up my feelings.
So much so that I made a comment to my wife about 'putting up that umbrella' in a horrible tone. Later on she was annoyed at how I had spoken to her. I said that 'this condition is getting the better of me'. She said 'yeaaa sure, blame the condition'. My mind flipped and before I knew it I violently kicked a chair which beside me saying, well I can't remember but something alone the lines of 'yes the condition has me this way'.
She left the room and later on told me that another violent incident and we'd be in the divorce courts.
I now feel trapped. Do I need to talk to a psychologist about this? Or given that there is a financial cost involved here, try to work this out myself and save my money for dry eye treatments.
Kevin
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