Hokucat I also feel the same way about things or some situations that used to worry me out of proportion. However, I wish I did not have to go through this painful experience to learn that. Interestingly, now I am never bored and that is not a good thing. I am constantly either tolerating my eyes or worrying about them. I had a few instances about 2 months back when I started to feel boredom again and it was exciting because it meant I was starting to become free from my thoughts and sensations. My brain no longer was constantly occupied. Now, I have bad stretches of days again and I don’t know why.
I also recognize the same thoughts about being too young. I imagined that some sorts of diseases would be inevitable once I become a senior but I did not imagine being suicidal from pain and discomfort at the age of 28. I feel like if I was older, I would at least have a good life to look at. My life was just starting in a way. Good work projects popped up, friends, great partner, tackling old phobias, and then this hit.
I also recognize the same thoughts about being too young. I imagined that some sorts of diseases would be inevitable once I become a senior but I did not imagine being suicidal from pain and discomfort at the age of 28. I feel like if I was older, I would at least have a good life to look at. My life was just starting in a way. Good work projects popped up, friends, great partner, tackling old phobias, and then this hit.
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