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  • #16
    Hi Marty,

    I just saw this post, and I'm so sorry for what you are going through. I am 27 and had lasik 17 months ago. I do not have any children, and I can only imagine how much harder that would have made the whole situation for me, but I can sympathize with the depression, anxiety, and the fact that no one seemed to understand. I am one of the people that showed Diana's story to my family to try to help them understand how serious this all was. I will say that it did help them understand better, and they were more supportive after that. I just wanted to restate what many other people have already said. You are going to get better!! There is still a chance for your eyes healing, but even if that does not happen, you are going to learn to manage and you are going to "get your life back". That is how I always look at it. For over a year, I was not myself...I felt like my life had been taken away from me because I was so miserable and depressed. I did not make big strides emotionally until probably 13 or 14 months post-op. My eyes had not gotten any better, but I just learned to deal with it better. I certainly still have my ups and downs, it is hard not to when the pain is bad...BUT, I am no longer in a deep depression like I was before. Like Neil said, on the bad days, you have to focus on the times that aren't so bad, and enjoy them to the fullest when they are there. I actually look forward to things, and I have found joy in my life again, even with the dry eyes.

    I know how low of a place you are in, and I know how much of a struggle life seems to be. You just need to take things day by day and you WILL get through this. Diana is right about reaching out. I reached out to so many people on this site to get me through the rough times, and I'm not sure how I would have made it without them. Please feel free to PM or email me if you need to talk. I'll keep you in my prayers.

    -Shells

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    • #17
      Nitey says:
      So you may not have caused this with the Lasik.
      Oh, Nitey!
      I must say in almost all instances those of us who had lasik know when, what although probably not why the lasik caused our dry eyes! It is almost black and white in our cases. True, meds, environment and all sorts of other stuff can vary results. But, we ARE sure when lasik has caused our dry eyes.

      This is so much more provable than taking a medicine. We have a difinitive timeline with which to recognize our agony. :-) We paid thousands for the privilege of "getting" dry eyes. Mine cost $4,400 and that was only to start it going. ........Our timelines do vary, but they always started after lasik. Some right away, some a couple of months later and some (although fewer) a year later. In my personal case, my eyes started to be painfully dry about 4-6 weeks after the procedure. The doctors now know and tell in the informed consent that lasik can cause dry eyes. In the early days of lasik @2000 and prior, they denied this was the case.

      Just more useless info for you.
      Don't trust any refractive surgeon with YOUR eyes.

      The Dry Eye Queen

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      • #18
        To everyone who has posted a reply, I completely symphathize with each and everyone of you. I appreciate your kind and encouraging words. I really admire the fact that you guys can remain positive even though you are experiencing DES. I am not so positive right now. I do not know if I ever will be again. I am definitely in a funk right now. I hate to moan and groan to everyone, but I feel like my path has been set at 24. I am going to have to deal with this beast until I die. I have already done all I can. I take vitamins. I have had my tear ducts cauterized. When I had that procedure done, the eye doctor said " You're a little young to be having this done, most of the people who have this procedure are a lot older". Great, so much to look forward to. I use drops throughout the day, but I prefer to naturally moisten my eyes. I can make my eyes water at will. I have had a complete eye exam, and everything is fine, as far as my corneas and eyesight. I am very young, so I am sure this will change as I get older.

        I know a lot of you suggested I get on an antidepressant. I have thought about it, but it is not going to change the dry eye. I am still going to wake up every morning and that be the first thing on my mind, and the last thing when I go to sleep. If I just had to deal with dry eye, I might be able to handle it, but I have got other issues as well. My coping abilities have been exhausted. I can not talk to anyone about this, because unless they have it, they will not understand, or they will act weird around me. I definitely do not want them to know that I have thought about suicide, because I do not want them to think I can not take care of my son. To look or talk to me, you would think I am perfectly normal. I am very responsible, and I take good care of my son. I am just keeping it together as long as I can, but I do not believe I can live with this for the rest of my life. My goal is raise my son until he is grown. I do not mean to discourage anyone, but I think that everyone's breaking point is different. I have not met mine yet, but I cannot live with this for 50 more years. What a nightmare!
        Last edited by clintsmommy; 04-Dec-2006, 15:22.

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        • #19
          You're clearly in trouble, and I think you need to reach out to a professional for help.

          Of COURSE you're 'too young' for this. Of COURSE it absolutely stinks. Those things are true. But when you say that you wouldn't consider an antidepressant because it won't change your dry eyes, you're missing a critical point: it might make you FEEL better, emotionally. It might make it easier to COPE with the dry eye pain.

          Significant improvement COULD be just weeks or months away for any of us. We just don't know. If you convince yourself that you will have 70 more years of this and worse, then you are bound to feel worse. If you try to live more in the moment, you may find it slightly easier to get by.

          I feel safe in saying that most of us here understand your plight. Probably a fair number of us are dealing with other issues, too. We aren't tougher, smarter, or better people than you. Many of us have just worked hard to change our perspective over time. Nobody is saying it's easy. I'M saying it's possible. In your case, working with a health-care professional (psychiatrist, more than likely) may offer you significant help. It may change your life. It may mean that Clint's mommy lives to a ripe old age to play gramma. No intention of putting guilt on you. I just want to see the best possible outcome here, as do you.

          But I think you need professional help, and--as always--I don't mean that as ANY KIND of putdown. I mean it as a gesture of compassion and concern.

          I hope you'll take that step. I hope you'll take it today. Do you work outside the home? Does your company have EAP (Employee Assistance Program) resources? If you don't have easy access to this kind of care, let us know. Maybe I can find a phone number for you. I'd be happy to try.

          Neil
          Last edited by neil0502; 04-Dec-2006, 11:34.

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          • #20
            Clintsmommy,

            Sorry to hear that you're in a tough spot right now. I agree with everything that Neil said. As another young person with dry eyes, I feel your pain. It's not fair. It's no fun.

            One thing that keeps me going when I'm down is faith in science. I can guarantee you that in ten years there will be much better treatments for dry eye. In twenty years there may be a cure. In 30-40 years there will be a cure. Just look at how quickly treatment has improved in the past five years (Restasis, soft steroids, Lacriserts, much better artificial tears), maybe someone that has had dry eyes for a while can chime in on this. Scientists and physicians already know much much more about what makes up our tear film that they ever did before. So when Clint is going to college and getting married, your eyes will be doing much better than they are now. I promise you they will.

            This may sound basic, but have you tried warm compresses recently? I tried half-heartedly with washclothes a while back, and didn't see much change, but am now doing them four times a day with a microwaveable eye mask and have seen improvement already. A study that someone posted on here a while ago took people with dry eye and had them do warm compresses and lid scrubs for 10 min, twice a day for two weeks and on average their TBUT increased four seconds. So maybe give this a try, although it's time-intensive it is cheap, and hopefully it will give you some rapid comfort.

            Like Neil said, please get help, not just for your sake but for your son's. And please don't lose hope - things will get better.

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            • #21
              Marty,

              You message makes me want to cry (but I'm trying not to since it is bad for my eyes!!!!!!) You sound EXACTLY like I did a year ago. Everyone told me that I would learn to deal with it, and I DID NOT believe them. I thought for sure that I was destined to a life of misery. I woke up every morning with my eyes on my mind, and went to bed every night the same way. I thought about my eyes atleast every minute of every day. That is not the case for me anymore, or for many of the other people on this site that were in your shoes early on. Please believe that things can get better for you too!!!! I am not 100% myself yet, but I am so much better than I used to be. I still get down sometimes, I think it is impossible not to when you are dealing with chronic pain. But I can assure you that it is nothing like the desperation I felt early on. Please believe that you can beat this too. I agree with Neil that you should seek professional help if you need to. And as for the anti-depressant...it might not be about making your eyes better, it is about making your quality of life better. I swear that throughout my whole ordeal, the emotional stuff was half the battle...maybe even more at times! If you can get the depression under control, things will be so much better.

              Crying and making your eyes tear up on their own may not be the best thing. I spent hours and hours crying, and all it did was leave my eyes red and sore and took them a while to recover. So, often times the depression actually adds to the eye problems. As far as dealing with this for the rest of your life....try not to think that far ahead. Just take things day by day...I know...SO MUCH easier said than done. When I can't help but think about the future, I think like Flick. For all we know, in 10 years this could be the LAST THING on our minds! Maybe all of us will have healthy normal eyes by then with all the research that is going into dry eyes these days. Even the eye drops that I use now are new since my eye problems started. I try to stay optimistic about other things coming out in the future that will help us even more.

              You sound so sad, and it is so upsetting that anyone has to suffer like this, but we DO understand. Many of us have been exactly where you are right now. Please don't lose hope though, things are going to get better. Please send me a PM If you need to talk.

              -Shells

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