I am beyond consumed by this...
my brief situation...post-lasik nearing 5 months, perpetual stinging/burning left eye and dry, gritty, scratchy eyes.
I can't think of anything else and its wrecking me. I do not have a great job, no benefits and low pay...I do not have the resources to look for a solution. One 15 mintue visit with an eye specialist here cost me $90 plus an additional $80 for a steroid drop. I can't afford this.
I ****ing hate it. I often compare myself from 6 months ago to myself currently. I am a shell. I am often despondent. Focusing at work takes all of my energy. I know I should not let something non-life threatning affect me, but I find it SO impossible.
This is runing my relationship with my parents, my girlfriend, and my co-workers. I cannot blame it directly on the procedure, but truthfully my situation is attributable to that surgery. I was not like this before it whatsoever. I had praises from my boss; I recieved employee of the quarter only 3 months on the job and used to be happy to take on the extra work. Now I'm lucky to actually get an hour of actual work done a day.
My girlfriend is bearing alot of my frustrations...I hate the way it consumes me, and I never meant or intended this surgery to do this. It was supposed to just make life a bit easier. She misses the old me; so do I. I am at a loss for solutions. The combined stress of a financial misery, a suffering relationship, and a mountain of guilt and regret are unbearable.
It takes absolute focus to get my feet on the ground in the morning. I am so despondent and unresponsive to others needs. I am ashamed of my actions but cannot fix it on my own.
Please, what do I do?
my brief situation...post-lasik nearing 5 months, perpetual stinging/burning left eye and dry, gritty, scratchy eyes.
I can't think of anything else and its wrecking me. I do not have a great job, no benefits and low pay...I do not have the resources to look for a solution. One 15 mintue visit with an eye specialist here cost me $90 plus an additional $80 for a steroid drop. I can't afford this.
I ****ing hate it. I often compare myself from 6 months ago to myself currently. I am a shell. I am often despondent. Focusing at work takes all of my energy. I know I should not let something non-life threatning affect me, but I find it SO impossible.
This is runing my relationship with my parents, my girlfriend, and my co-workers. I cannot blame it directly on the procedure, but truthfully my situation is attributable to that surgery. I was not like this before it whatsoever. I had praises from my boss; I recieved employee of the quarter only 3 months on the job and used to be happy to take on the extra work. Now I'm lucky to actually get an hour of actual work done a day.
My girlfriend is bearing alot of my frustrations...I hate the way it consumes me, and I never meant or intended this surgery to do this. It was supposed to just make life a bit easier. She misses the old me; so do I. I am at a loss for solutions. The combined stress of a financial misery, a suffering relationship, and a mountain of guilt and regret are unbearable.
It takes absolute focus to get my feet on the ground in the morning. I am so despondent and unresponsive to others needs. I am ashamed of my actions but cannot fix it on my own.
Please, what do I do?
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